entah la beb. i tink im giving up. giving up on giving up. hahaha. i actually feel much much better now. but.. i still need you. i miss you. im sorry... but... i relli hope things get back to how it was last time. sigh. give me a sign. smile at me when i see ya?perhaps go mug some day? ah wells... im prepared to wait...
Thursday, February 05, 2009
i seem to do everything else except study. on msn, i stare at... am i obsessed? gosh. it scares me. ive nvr been sadder in my life ever before. its like my whole essence got ripped out of me. and and and the worst part is that only just recently. like just. did i realize the mistake. all this while, haha. it feels like some cycle, i wld deduce something, only to reject the hypothesis. but now. somehow, i feel sure i know what went wrong. and i wanna tell you. THAT IT WAS MY MISTAKE. OUR MISTAKE! but will you let me close enough to tell you this? is it already too late? sadly, i think it is. so why am i still stuck here? im weird i guess. ):my friends by now wld haf found someone else, forgot your number, the way u smell, stop dreaming bout you. but why is it all not happening to me? i hate it that my heart goes up my throat when i see you walk pass. and it makes me wonder, why do i always spot you, but it seems as if u dont even see me. maybe its just in me la. will you give me a lifetime to forget you? will you wait for me to become a better person? please say yes.