and then it hit me.
the drama.
the hype.
the 'hollywoodness' of it all
all the attention.
... how ignorant could i have been?
... im sorry!
hello (rant)
1/29/2009 01:06:00 amhello dearest,
how are you? great? ...well i hope so.
ive seen you here and there. but more so when i close my eyes.
sigh. im still stuck. ):
ive missed you. do u miss me? id say no. u look fine. or is it all a front? well i hope ure doing good. always have. always will.
so why are you ignoring me? still upset? cant blame ya. i hate whats happened. but we're human. we cant change the past. only learn frm it.
can i smile when i see you next time? may i say hi? will you look away? will you hurt me some more? i hope not.
you're nice. you told me.
i hope. no. i know. i believe.
someday. someday. (:
Sunday, January 25, 2009
song (song)
1/25/2009 02:41:00 pmi wish you were here with me, tonight.
tonight by FM STATIC, damn nice song.
I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a
million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight
I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to
feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you hereI sing
Tonight
I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to
come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
will you come back, tonight?
Saturday, January 24, 2009
you (rant)
1/24/2009 01:56:00 pmyou were born alone into this world. and you will die alone. someday. everyone is an island. no one cares or bothers. only the lucky few have friends and family that for the most part, care. i dont kno. am i damn unlucky or something? why do i make it seem so easy to care bout others, even those who dont want my care, even those who cant be bothered, ignorant. is it so hard to extend your hand to help someone in need? perhaps. its odd la. i find. anyway, how good a person are you? can u go to bed at night, without a care in the world? even after doing something wrong? will the memory haunt you. or will you just shrug it aside? and one more thought running through my mind... sure they say people can change overnight. sure, people do stupid things to piss u off all the time. but, dont you think the person deserves everything in the world for one chance, a benefit of the doubt, with you remembering all the good times and things the person has done for you in the past? dont be quick to forget. you will be living a lie. im still me. maybe a little older, a little wiser, a little mature.and im more irritated and angry too. upset, and disappointed. at you.nah. its a passing emotion, will go away soon.
Monday, January 19, 2009
i hate you
1/19/2009 02:24:00 amYOU STOLE MY FRIENDS. YOU STOLE MY HAPPINESS. YOU STOLE MY EVERYTHING. are you happy now?
Saturday, January 03, 2009
move on. (rant)
1/03/2009 12:35:00 amwhy cant i start living my life once again?
simple. because it was stolen by someone.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
2009 (post)
1/01/2009 07:41:00 ama new year. but i still yearn for an old love. will you come around soon?
what's auld lang syne anyway?