blinded. yea. was goin 2 my grandmas place juz now. saw 2 jj students kissin. oblivious of e surroundings id say. like never kiss b4 sia. haha. u had 2 c it 2 believe it. i went in e hse, changed n came out. guess wad? they were in e same position. kaoz. totally grossed out. hahaz. oh ya. juz now, e com lab technician finally cracked. he collected e guys bus pass. haha. but since i was usin 2 coms, was able to turn e monitor off n act like i was surfin. sly. i noe. smart, id say. but luckily e game was over. e longest n most fun game. but i wasnt e top frag. haiz. mabbe id play 2morrow. nahh. shld start studyin. like wat i did juz now. stayed in skool till 8 to study! believe it or not.
Monday, July 26, 2004
pe was lame man. mr ng for no apparent reason was extra nice 2 me. dunno y. keep advicing me on stuff. n didnt punnish me 4 chewin bubble gum oso. well, actually, he sorta did - made me e IC. haha. k. had a mini SOC. ran 2 rnds den did e window, wall, monkey bars, parallel bar, zig-zag n 1 more round.. in 6.04 mins!! crazy sia. surprised even myself.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
joey passes the ball to zhi han. zhi han brings the ball foward. shrugs off the the attacker n loses posession. the ball rolls now onto the path of wei sheng. he looks up. spots miq. sends a through pass to him. an opponent lifts his leg up and deflects the ball. the ball rises up into the air and falls slowly. time freezes as miq positions himself. the court is silent. oh my!! wat a sweet contact!! the ball rifles off his left foot into the corner of the farpost. the keeper was clearly beaten. wat a goal. the contact couldnt have been sweeter. 1-1.
haha. if there were commentary on e game we played juz now, it wld haf sounded like tt wen i scored. prolly on of me sweetest goals. ever. haha. juz now mornin go to bukit batok court to play soccer wif e old css guys. long time no see e sajc guys. play so many games. damn fun. lol. but took me quite a while to get used 2 e conditions- long time since last played there. e last time, almost got into a fight (wld haf been our 4th brawl there).
den went to my cuzzn's birthday celebrations. ok ar, e food superb. then again, my grandma's cookin. so it wuzzn a surprise. lol. tin i ate too much. still feel full. haha. shant sleep too early. otherwise itll turn into fats. yea, gonna stay up n study till e copa final. yep.
Friday, July 23, 2004
haha.. wad a day. first of all, juz got home. hahaz. well, lets c. 2day was e big day- e econs test day. so how did it go? well, i was totally surprised wen i saw e qns! ha! damn fuckin easy sia. lol. finished e mcqs n went straight to e drq. oin to find out tt i had 2 hand in e mcqs. n all my drq efforts went down e drain (wrote it on e same paper). e essays oso quite ok la. tt said, im gonna b surprised if i fail. hmm.. b4 e test, i was at e com lab wif e usual suspects playin 6 on 6 DOtA. damn fun game. i top frag sia. managed 2 buy all e items. haha. my attack speed upped 130%- super god-like fast sia. had a great time killin khai n ahmad n all e other scourges. laguna blade rulez!!
den went to imran's place 2 play ps2. challenged zamir there. he was 2 take e train while i took the bus. haha. guess wad? i reached there 1st. goes to show, 188 is e best bus. lol. durin dinner laff like hell sia. until stomach cramp n we all were tearing. haha. e jokes we cracked damn lame. oh ya, i finally scored in every game i played 2dy, includin e 10-2 loss to taj, 5-4 and 2-1 wins to zamir, 3-0 to wei lun and the final game- 1-1 to kennard. nabei. the last match really riled me up. i wuz on a high n scored 1st. oni 4 tt bugger to equalise n bring it to penalties. ha. my keeper superb sia. van Der Saar saved 3 kicks, almost single handedly gave e victory to me. but, poor finishing on my players side led kennard back into e game.. n he won!! nooo!! relli pissed. i want a rematch!
oh ya. juz now almost got knoced down. zamir was usin my fone.. n 172 was comin on e other side... didnt want miss it so i ran accross e t-junction. full speed. lol. e 307 extra sia. still can horn. wtf?
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
econs test!! noooo! its oni 2 days away. cant afford to fail liao. its high time i started scoring. haiz. lol. ohh well...
juz now got college clean n green day. clean the class. man, finished e job very fast. not as fun as last yr oso. lol. im gonna get angry wif e next person tt writes on e whiteboard. i spent way 2 much time cleanin it. can c my face on it lo.
oh ya. haha. damn happy. found my lost bus pass. tot i lost it fo shure yesterdae. luckily, sum1 gave it 2 e g.o. tnx whoever u r. oh ya. oso finally talked 2 her on e fone. sial ar. been so bz n sleepy tt i missed lots of her calls. well, was nice talkin 2 her n listenin to her voice, although i was half sleepin durin e convosation. lol. (hope she doesnt c this. lol)
Sunday, July 18, 2004
the heat is on. the race has begun. no more time for fun. i shan't stop till its done. corny, i noe.
corny, i noe. but it relli does sum up the situation of things as it is.
Friday, July 16, 2004
fuckin tired. played softball, soccer, volleyall n of course, warcraft. total time spent? 6hrs. total time spent (actually) studyin? 2 hrs 30 min. lol. legs r dead. got a throbbing headache. i want my bed. enough said.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
so shoot me. i didnt study as hard as i haf 2. yea, well, gotta start somewhere.. n i did! i did some readin of my yr1 notes. hmm, today a little bit diff frm e past few days. play warcraft.. but instead of soccer, played softball!! haha.. yeap! softball. man, so fun sia. lol. cant wait 4 inter hse.. if im playin tt is.
hehe. relli love e feelin of whackin e ball wif da bat. n oso like catchin e ball. kaoz.. shld haf joined softball instead of soccer. n i noe im not alone wen i say tt.. right? right? cannavaro? right?
Sunday, July 11, 2004
You're always right,
I'm forever wrong,
I shan't disagree,
I'll do anything you say,
Even if it displeases me.
Never disobey you,
Don't argue, or speak my mind,
And if you should make a mistake,
Pretend that I am blind.
Don't go along,
Must be I'm mean,
Sorry to anger you so,
Never should have voiced my feelings,
Maybe next time I will know.
Hateful child,
That is me,
You say it - must be true,
But from the place I'm standing in,
The hateful one is you
Saturday, July 10, 2004
today supposed 2 go meet jon n e guys for steaboat dinner at marina bay. but had patents teacher meetin. wah. tok 2 mr ng 4 more than 1hr sia!. frm 4.45 to 6pm!! well, i muz say tt e meetin was a real eye opener. i realised tt im e worst performer in e class! haiz. well, as they say, frm where i m, i can oni go upwards. man, mr ng is a good motivational speaker. he made me see e world in perspectve, in a clearer light so to speak. oh haha.. considerin tt im online (as i write this), i guess im not grounded, n me freedom provoked.. although i was advised not to go out 2dy. but 3 mths sacrifice is nothin big la. can do 1.
haha. 4got 2dy is bapok b'dae. sorry man. tink u no mood 2 celebrate oso.. but wth? hope u win big on strike. bet on argentina wen they vs. mexico.
Friday, July 09, 2004
Like a sleeping newborn,
My innocence was true,
But it all changed when I met you.
Such a splendid life,
I thought to myself,
Blinded by love,
I'd do anything you tell me to.
Each morning I woke thinking of you,
Denying the fact of all bad deeds you do.
I gave you my soul, and my trust,
But you threw it away for a night of lust.
I was strangled by the tangled web you weaved.
It's lucky for you I gave more than I received.
A garment of love had covered my eyes,
Blinding me from seeing through your lies.
I must admit,at times you were great,
But your deceitful ways turned my love to hate.
*tinking of a friend who wen thru tis problem. tis is a tribute to u man. cheer up. no one deserves this
09.07.04
7/09/2004 08:01:00 pmhaiz.. so tired.. supposed 2 go 2 taka 2 meet jon n e guys.. but play soccer until too tired. mabbe 2morrow.. sorry dude. relli wanted 2 meet ya after all tis years. tried 2 pester e rest 2 come.. but all cocked up one.
so yea, mabbe 2morrow.. if my parents allow tt is. dunno wats gonna happen after e ptn meetin. i remember, last yr, got bombarding by mr ng, ok ar.. wat he say is true..i gotta buck up n all.. its my future.. but wen go home, my computer kena confiscated. bye-bye late night surfing. put in common area.. haiz. but nvm, my grades improved a bit. ohh well, my freedom to go out is still here.. coz they trust in me. well, mabbe all tt gonna change 2morrow. hope not sia.
geeze..realise tt tis wk, so far its has been e same after skool activities over n over again. war-craft den soccer...war-craft den soccer...haiz. gotta start studying!but easier said than done.
Thursday, July 08, 2004
08.07.04
7/08/2004 10:29:00 pmbloody lhf. caught me 4 my hair. e irony is tt i juz cut it yesterday! nabei. he relli got smtin wif me la. my shirt tucked in oso he pull out a bit den say nvr tuck in properly. tis guy ar, fuck him la. sit like ah pek but scold others 4 sittin slack at e canteen.
heez..i finally got e hang of playin warfcraft. today killed like 2000 frags. super sia. haha.. but still cant beat e kingz (han wei n bapok). bloody hell.. 2morrow i gonna go play summore.. haha.. e technician didnt care.. tink he gif up hope oreadi. finally got to go to gym n train.. ahaahaha.. shit man.. realli weak ready. oni did 2x20 arm curls wif 20kg weights n cldnt feel my arms animore.. haha.. den try to do chin-up, in e end did oni 1 or 2.. kept hangin arnd like a monkey.. haiz.. wat 2 do? too weak. wow.. e weather so bad.. cldnt play soccer.. den no mood 2 study oso.. shit man.. haha.. nvm, muz motivate myself to study oreadi.
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
07.07.04
7/07/2004 10:10:00 pmhaiz.. wat a bloody terrible day. in e mornin woke up late.. 6 45 to b exact.. then wen i was packin my stuff.. cldnt find my freaking soccer boots. muz haf been stolen. shit. den during e inter hse, we vs. bikila 1st. haiz.. forced 2 man-mark khai. but ok ar.. i played 1 half.. they didnt score a goal.. but got made a fool of by e 'ol captain. shit sia.. kena ole! puki. haiz.. damn demoralised.. got subbed later.. went out wif a standing oviation. haha.. bloody bannister guys.. haha.. shit man.. wat happened 2 me 2dy?
for the record, owens went on to lose 2-0.. goals frm khai.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
untitled
7/06/2004 10:57:00 pmI lay awake at night
Thinking of holding you
And with my eyes closed tight
Crying is all i can do
The tears start out meek
Then like rain begin to pour
Down my cheeks they streak
And I need you here even more
We've both grown up so much
I'd love to be with you again
Want you close, to feel your touch
To resist would bring me pain
I am so scared to say how I feel
I'm still in love with you, baby
But what if that's not how you feel
Please tell me, I'm going crazy
Your smile makes my day
Your laugh lasts me for a week
Are you happy with what I say
Or are my offerings too meek
One day I want to give you a ring
Then hold you all that night
You and me is a good thing
Us together is all that is right
*heck. the more i read this, the more corny
it sounds.. wat was i thinking?*
06.07.04
7/06/2004 08:12:00 pm..palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy..
if i hafta describe how i feel now wif a song, lose yourself wld b a great example. kaoz. juz now play soccer.. at e netball court.. super fun..super great day.. ahahaz.. but now, i cant feel my legs *ouch!! wait.. i got a cramp!!* ahh much betta. ok wth? scored like 8 goals atleast.. ohh man superb sia.. even if i do say so myself. poacher.. van nistlerooy.. nuno gomes.. e names i was called juz now.. wow.. no guessing the resemblance wif me.. i haf van's floppy/messy hair.. nuno's colour n face structure.. haha.. ok wtf? sorry gurmesh (for kickin e ball while it was under ur control).. sorry zamir (for pouncin on ur loose balls).. n sorry sohail (4 hittin tt bulls-eye on ur face)..
skool 2dy slack like hell sia.. haha.. during econs kena stand behind class.. like small kid man.. i still remember in pri skool.. erm.. in pri 5.. always stand one.. haha.. han wei.. u remember mrs loh? e tyrannious bitch we 'chased' away. fuck sia.. i walkin 2 science lab.. i was tossin my pencil box up in e air playfully.. e 'ol bitch came 2 me, pulled my sideburn (*owwie!*) n scolded me! (guys, if u tink lhf n xyz are unreasonable, tink again..)..aniway, den go play war-craft.. haha.. finally got e hang of e game.. damn fun killing all e minions.. reminds me of dynasty warriors.. haha.. lord liu bei rulz!!.. zhao yun sux la zamir.. oi guys.. go 2 neil's place 2 play summore la.
Monday, July 05, 2004
05.07.04
7/05/2004 03:18:00 pmok.. finally euro 2004 is over.. (still remember last euro, was oni 14 yrs old.. supported italy... i cried on e bus on e way 2 skool coz italy were juz 10 secs away frm winning e cup!!) haiz.. deprived of soccer again.. oh wait.. got copa america! woohoo! ok aniway, i watched e match.. e final i mean.. tot of goin 2 chijmes.. but realised got 2 much hwk.. so stayed at home n finished most of it.. hahaz.. wat can i say, i predicted well. greece to win, a header from a corner. haha. if oni betting was 'halal', wow.. i wld haf been super rich by now.. hmm.. e game was kinda entertaining.. as the euro web site said,
"Perhaps contrary to some expectations, the game was an attractive spectacle from the start, with both sides playing fluently"
..but i reli liked e way e greeks played.. i mean wen portugal attacked, u have tt sick feeling tt a goal is gonna b scored.. relli gets u excited wen e greeks clear e ball.. ahaha..
ohh well, i guess im gonna watch e copa match b4 goin 2 skool on tuesday mornin.. haha.. can see my sleepy face wait.. haha
hmm.. 2dy my gramma's b'dae.. sure got feast.. my mom n gran love 2 cook.. juz gif em a reason n they will dish up someting great.. cool..
Saturday, July 03, 2004
03.07.04 >>> relli pensive today
7/03/2004 09:55:00 pmman.. seruizly, i got no idea y i waste my time online doing up blogs.. haha.. nahh.. i keep telling myself its juz a fad. yea, thats right. haha.. no point wasting my time doing up html codes for tis crap. ohh well, if oni i concentrated as hard on my hwk, i might go some where.. haha.. speakin bout somewhere.. my uncle suggests i go to the university of texas.. haha.. he has a lecturer friend there n lotsa connections.. nahh.. id rather go to oxford (yea i noe.. dream on!).
i juz stopped a while juz now to think where i was heading in life.. did i relli want to remain a drifter? a loser wif no sense of direction? well, as much as i like 2 admit tt i like bein a loser.. the expectations r very minimal.. its kinda draining me.. no point la. being sucked into being a true loser. ahaaz.. all i need now is someone 2 tell me that.. oh wait.. sum1 juz did.. wat a coincidence. mabbe i shld juz become a religious dude-person. spend my life in some institution studying religion. mabbe, yea, juz mabbe.. ohh man.. wat m i talking? (english.. i noe.. shut up)
wat im doin now? waitin 4 my family to return. they went to sembawang.. uncles place. got some kinda maulut i guess.. well y im not there? simple.. got 2 much hwk.. plus i dun like 2 go to tis kinda congregations. relli feel outa place.. hahaz..sigh. mom made grilled fish 4 me.. damn big.. haha.. cant eat it finish.. but wth? its damn tasty.. tink she knew i wuzznt goin.. hahaz. oh yea, turns out my bro got her a nice pair of shoes. haha.. saw e receipt.. $300 haha.. surely he got some cash frm dad.. so i guess $50 isnt tt much then huh? well, tt makes me broke.. i got wat? $10 left now.. how 2 go watch spider-man n e euro finals in town? plus top up me fare card?
hahaz.. on a brighter note.. im home alone.. e weather is great.. dun feel like goin out.. mabbe ill laze arnd n do some studying.. is it me or has stufying become trendy recently? i kinda like studying.. haha.. woohoo.. its official. ive gone crazy.
Friday, July 02, 2004
02.07.04
7/02/2004 10:47:00 pmheyz.. haha.. today skool lame man.. during e geog lect keep eatin sweets n tryin to shoot e wrapper into e basket.. lol lame sia.. den kok keep playin wif e blue balloon.. damn dirty minded sia! ahahaha.. after skool play soccer.. wif e arts boys.. so funny.. love playin wif em.. but didnt want 2 get smelly so stopped 1/2 way n went 2 canteen.
den after prayer came back 2 skool 2 play warcraft.. hahazz.. e new type i play omost like diablo.. but dunno how 2 play.. man muz haf looked stopid infront of e other guys..
den saw e makkals playin soccer at e netball court.. Yeah babY!! man.. e best place 2 play soccer in jj is e netball court.. haha.. dunno who told me den all e girls passin by.. esp e netball girls will look at us.. hahaz.. but if like tt den added preasure ba.. hahaz.. kaoz eh.. i step onto e court den saw akram bulls eye kennard..song bo? hahaz.. wth? freak accident sia. so follow him go je n fix his specks.. den go slack at e library.. p*ki!..hahaz.. got lotsa chio girls there.. haha.. (ne e grp of girls next to us) haha.. sial ar.. ham chi 2 ask 4 her no. lol.. hahaz.. i tink e guys noe who i tokin bout. hahaz.. sial ar.. wonder wat they tink of me.. i wearin jj pe shorts n t shirt.. haha.. surely look macam some cheap idiot.. or man utd player?! hahaz.. dunno leh.. hahaz.. wth?
01.07.04
7/02/2004 03:26:00 pmhahaz.. slept at skool.. u noe y? coz of euro.. nabei.. holland lost! but nvm, czech gonna lose oso! hahaz was sleepin during history lecture.. well.. shenlyn oso sleep.. she nvr get caught.. so i oso sleep la. hahaz.. got back home n fell asleep.. lol.. woke up 6.23am.. hahaz.. song bo? 13 hrs of sleep.. hahaz..but u noe wad? it was my mom's b'dae.. i guess they went to dinner n left me 2 sleep.. haha.. i muz haf looked tt sleepy.. my mom said she woke me up.. but i wuz 'dead'.. hahaz.. hmm.. luckily my bro say tt we were sharin e present.. hahaz.. now i owe him $50.. wonder wat he got her?. hmmm..
Thursday, July 01, 2004
just forget it.
7/01/2004 12:41:00 amWords can not explain it,
A human voice can never say,
What true love feels like,
Or when it goes away.
Everyone will someday feel it,
And know the hope that was in their heart,
The only problem is,
How you feel when it falls apart.
When they tell you its over,
That they don't feel like you do,
Your whole world is ending,
Your whole life is through.
But love will come again,
Because you can still find that one,
That you want to be with,
Until you life is done.
*haha..tot of postin tis poem.. one of me most moving i guess.. goin out to anyone and everyone who needs to hear my words of wisdom.. hahaz.*