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...and i can be your knight, if only you would let me.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004
planet games.
11/30/2004 10:17:00 pm

went 2 e science center wif me bro. haha. can u believe tt? a great day... wif my no.1 enemy. haha. so i spent 4 hrs playin fifa 2005 there. much coz e place sux. haha. but i muz say, e pod racers was fun. k, tis is childish.


Monday, November 29, 2004
havoc begins
11/29/2004 11:09:00 pm

went 2 town wif chang. quite fun la. got a nice t-shirt. haha. my first shirt made in south america. met nick at orchard. tink he was out preparin 4 e bash.


Sunday, November 28, 2004
my fone... its alive!!
11/28/2004 11:57:00 pm

went to plaza singapura wif salik 2 fix my fone!! had 2 pay $21 for a stupid mistake i made... dammit. i swear never 2 operate my fone later than 3am.


Thursday, November 25, 2004
24.11.04
11/25/2004 07:18:00 pm

haha.'a' levels finish le. but still went 2 skool 2dy. y? play soccer ba. haha. but like shit la. game over so fast. so yep. went to ims hse instead. btw, im still there as i type. sial ar, 1st time got so many ppl here. me, kennard, eko, chim, zamir, im, im, sri, jebu, lynn. haha. playin winning eleven-eight. game suckx. hard 2 control sial. juz drew 1-1 wif zamir sia. shit man. haha. looks like im lookin 4ward 2 more fun filled days. haha. goin 2 queensway 2mrw, wanna buy some shirts. been eyin tis nike trainin shirt. black n costs $60. hmm. need 2 get new clothes 4 e chalet. not tt my current shirts all old la. but kinda borin ba. i got sick after 6mths of wearin em.
speakin bout e chalet, hope its gonna go smothly sia. i mean on e day itself, nick wun bring us there. im supposed 2 do tt. e tin is i dunno where la. kaoz. haha.


Wednesday, November 24, 2004
freedom. atlast!
11/24/2004 11:26:00 pm

last ppr over!! haha. geog ppr 1. so i hope can get 'a' ah. but it was hard like hell sial. lol. k nvm. 4get it. haha. highlight of e day was goin 2 jp wif zam n nick. ook, after like 6 yrs, i finally picked up a ciggarette. but oni 2 puffs ba. nose was blocked. but oh man, tasted like dunno wat sial. felatio oso cannot beat e feeling man. sucked it in for like 5 secs. haha. k. now tt tts behind me, im gonna promise nvr 2 touch another stick... unless kennard wants 2 start again. haha.


Tuesday, November 23, 2004
'a' lvls.
11/23/2004 11:04:00 am

whee. feels soo great to blog again. bahz. long time nvr blog sia. not coz i no time ah... actually, my com still sick. haha. yep. u tink ive been studyin all along? hahaha. sad. i wish i were studyin too. u c, after every ppr i go n play soccer. den e next day got break la coz my pprs on alternate days. but instead of studyin i slack. dammit. its a bad habbit but wth? im gonna get retained for shure. haiz.
yesterday played soccer after e history ppr. ahh. dun ask me how i did... ok, ill tell u aniway. e source based, i write until i dunno wat shit i was writin. hand writin already worse than ziqin.. damn. den e essays ok la. but e last essay nvr finish. jus reached 2 1/2 pages times up. didnt haf enuff time 2 talk bout e communists.
ok, soccer yesterday... ok, kinda fun. den nick kicked ahmads leg den broke his bone. they went to e doctor at e banyan clinic. e doctor like pro sia. twist e toe until e bones back to normal. den nick had to come back 2 skool barefoot. haha. sad. walk like penguin.
ohh well, lets learn 4rm my mistake. o4a4 here i come.


Friday, November 12, 2004
torn-ed
11/12/2004 10:18:00 am

lucifer's back...but on a stopover to hell. so he says hello.
haiz. again no mood 2 study. been feelin sick since after e history ppr... after comin back 4rm queensway. damnit. shldnt haf played soccer in e rain. wahh. y m i not studyin? i dunno. dun ask me. tts e reason y i asked e qn in e 1st place. everyday come 2 skool 2 study but its either too hot or im sleepy. damn la. ontop of tt, ive been feelin hollow of late. like im lovesick. god. help. i nvr knew tt studyin cld make some1 go crazy. wahh!! shit man.
on a brighter note, dads gonna get a new car. tink its a jaguar. haha. can drive it soon man. ohh, i cant wait. hahaa. but theres still e matter of e fucked up 'a's which at e rate tings r goin, i tink im gonna repeat next yr. wahh.
which reminds me... goin 2 e motorshow later 2dy. shld b fun...
damn, wat m i tinkin? i shld b studyin. shit man. im screwed.
oh yea, got a new idea 4 prom. since e ronggeng guys r all goin now, were goin 2 stay over at neils hse 1st. den im like gonna wear a t-shirt inside, a long sleeve shirt over it, unbuttoned n over tt, a topman coat which is more like a 3rd layer coz its not tt thick. tink its gonna look cool. but well see...
man, im wasting my time here on earth. in any case, heres my wish list, considerin its hari raya aidilfitri n cristnmas season (muehehe. im gonna b busy taking souls tis festive season).so go click e links. or else, ull die.


Thursday, November 04, 2004
crimson tears
11/04/2004 02:05:00 pm

Just another distant creature of the night… hiding in the dark,

Forsaken by the Godliness… stills the beating of my heart,

Your eyes are full of wonder; the Curiosity piques within...

I'm fascinated by your raven mane, and the pallor of your skin,

Your words are full of complements; you think I want to hear,

I’m captivated by your innocence, as you whisper in my ear…

For you to think that I should be naive unto your ways...

Will surely bring you death my child, an end to unseen days,

Yet I wrap you in my coldness, and for a time, shield you from the fright,

Still you think that I’m your plaything; and game with me tonight,

I let you smooth your words, into the air like the falling rain,

But little do you know, that my touch will bring you pain,

You beg me for just one sweet kiss, to satisfy your lust,

For my lips are redder then the rose, to touch them is a must.

You ask me if I love you, and if I could learn to care,

The pleading in your movements, as closer yet you dare.

My eyes are vast and empty, a dark sight to behold,

I turn to you in pity, as I slowly take your soul,

Unknowingly... you stand there, emotion fills your eyes,

So willing to do my bidding, regardless if you die,

The candle flame it flickers, and bathes us in its light,

You drink in my carnal pleasures, and touch me in delight,

My body sears you fingers, like the fiery pits of hell,

And soon you will discover, my secrets I could not tell,

For I am not a normal man, can't you see?

I have no hope inside myself, any hope to set you free,

I tried to feel the warmth, that radiates your soul;

But it cut me like a razor, the sharp blade tears a hole.

To hurt you is my weakness, to watch it in your eyes,

And snuff your life to ashes, so that I may claim my prize,

My loneliness consumes me, and the sadness drowns your cries,

Now its time for you to learn, what you get for telling lies,

I take you in my tight embrace, morality has no part,

Tie you up with your conformity, and start to squash your heart,

Your torture is my erotica, my only precious tool,

To make you see what you’ve become, no other then a fool,

When your body lays there lifeless, and I am quite sure that you are dead,

Ill take my gentle hands from your throat and this is what ill say.

No longer will you taunt me, with talk of better things.

With goodness and with laughter and all the joy it brings,

Because I am purely evil, a malicious pretty thing,

For crimson tears fall from my eyes, and morbid things I sing...

My voice is full of hatred, and it has a sinful ring...

But Ill never mourn for anyone or want for anything.



Wednesday, November 03, 2004
lucifer's gone on holiday
11/03/2004 01:55:00 pm

haiz. i finally revemped my blog. even gothic-er that before. well, wad do yall think? nice?
so i guess this'll be my last blog entry for a damn long time. i mean, with the 'a's around the corner and my com still under repair. hope i do well mann, yea. should stop wasting my time. time to mug like fuck. and to all you other mortals who are taking your 'a's, good luck too. god bless you all. and if you fail (cross my fingers), dont worry. come to me. ill deal with your soul.
yours truely,
Ŧħê·Ğгįм·гêǻþêг


Monday, November 01, 2004
code switch (part 1)
11/01/2004 11:27:00 am

seriusly, tink i shld become some freelance writer. haha. dunno y but i recently in e mood 2 give some commentary. haha. abit tounge in cheek n not always politically correct. hmm, wat 2dy? well, i guess ill crap abt those singaporeans wif fake slangs.
yep. do u get annoyed by ppl who 'code switch' wenever theyr talkin to some westerner? well, approach one such a person n ask y. n e answer wld b tt 'singlish is too hard 4 these ppl 2 understand. so im tryin to accomodate em' oh pbbftt! please. like u code switch wen ure talkin to some china chinese or indian indian. chances r, tis bloody hypocrite will b mockin at their slangs. tis all boils down to the imbedded colonial mentality. well, in other words, ure acceptin tt ure inferior to tt race. yep. fools.
as for me, i dont gif a heck if tt ang moh duzznt understand me. case in pt, i talked 2 my ex's parents n friends in singlish. they understood perfectly (or so i tink). bahz. theyr even using colloquials such as 'lah'.
in skool, there r lotsa these ppl (not pointin out who). while i accept tt some of these ppl seriusly, well, i mean genuinely do haf this accents, it still irks me. y? coz its juz not natural! nahh, im not angry at yall.
oh yea, last wk, i was out at serene (as usual) n saw this grp of ppl. dunno if i told tis b4 or not but there was this one chinese lady wif a caucasian la k. so she was all sophisticated english n stuff n i tot well, she muz b 4rm hong kong judgin by her fluent english. haha. so e lady's fone rang n she came a little 2 my side (which was near 2 e dry cleaners where students usually study) n started talkin in the best singlish ive ever heard. hokkien swear words included. haha. imagine how i was laffin my innards out wen i realised tis lady was fakin it (pretty well even if i do say so myself). oh yea, as soon as e call was over, i heard her say 'oh, it was juz some friend of mine, darling. an old friend i play mahjong with. that git bag wants me to lend her some cash. poor thing, living in a HDB and all'. at tt pt in time i was like wth?!! look whos talking! n 4rm wat i comprehend, she was talkin to her sister la. haha.
aniway, back to my pt. stop faking it. hmm... tis brings me to question. is mr anand's slang real? haha.


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