SundayBack in tracom. sofar, trainin is becomin slack. actually, tts bad news. fuckedup. haha. brought along 11 cans of redbull. gonna try 2 skip meals n drink instead. seriusly need 2 lose more weight! Mondayswimming lesson again. haha. learned some water entering techs. well, as usual, im kinda ham abt water. heck... since lastime la. in sec 1, didnt even dare jump into e 1.8m water 2 pass e swimmin test. now kena do cannon ball into 2.1 m? haha. well, all i can say is tt my dives were damn entertaining. everyone cheering me on. coz im like damn nervous everytime. but, i guess i improve after every jump ah. e fun bit is creeping in.in e night, had first aid lesson. ended at 2230. wtf? e teacher is come old lady. kinda nice ah, mabbe too nice. heh, we were e last class 2 end. and yet we haven watched some kinda video or taken a test. Tuesdayhad a moral talk 2dy. so another late night. haha. e muslim guys of sq 11 marched 2 e blk 26 as if tracom was our home. lol. fun ah. dunno wat e regulars tot bout us. heck, atleast they noticed us. realised tt our squad keeps bumpin into e regs often. (e big ting bout e regs is tt they haf e oni gerls in tracom. n e new squad has some hot stuff) like 2dy mornin mass cal, they formed up behind us. haha, doin pushups time could see them. Wednesdayanother long night. sial ah, saw some disgusting pics like out of rotten.com....for 1st aid class. ahh. even ahbeng freaked out. Thursdaysometin cool happened 2dy. went 4 mass cal in e mornin. it started 2 rain. e squads infront of us started 2 run coz it was rainin heavily. but where we were standing, there was nothing. den, i felt drops on my left... oni my left for like 10 secs. e whole time, i tink e guys were 'soaking' up in e cheap thrill juz as much as i was. lol. had our 1st EOC trainin. tts enhanced-obstacle-course. basically, theres obstacles tt u wld find in urban singapore. theres even a drain and expressway like barrier as obstacles. kinda apprehensive doing e ramp. cldnt brake so had 2 jump akwardly n got sounding. den e barrier jumped over macam movie hero. tt oso kena. haha. lol. fi was damn funny. called up some of e guys who did mistakes n flashed a middle finger. lol. even said tt azman was taking his time on e wall coz he was looking at e regs. able was running e course like some ninja. lol. ninja tried to go thru e low wall. kneed the metal railing. ouch! tink it was pdp parade ah. e k9 ppl came down. sial ah, got lots of chio bus. Friday walk out day, 2nd dojo lesson. finally did spins n stuff. but i guess its all restricted info. we were all poised 4 a very early walkout. 1745! but fi became angry coz fatigue was 'poorly' done. threatened 2 confine e 4 ics. well, he relli looked e part. dunno bout e squad ah, but i was all for confining e whole squad. was a real wake up call. yea, sq11. best squad. everyting is on a bed of roses 4 us. coz most of our instructors (even e mess ic) are our fi's buddies. plus we haf a caring fi. we slacken wen hes nt arnd. fucked up ah. damn emotional now. dunno wat 2 say. speakin of say, its my turn 2 do e reflection bk. a great idea man, tis bk... got 2 noe some 'interesting' stuff...
Friday, April 22, 2005
SundayBack to TRACOM. bag is relli heavy coz of all e food (oreos mostly). i mean, its confinement week. waddaya expect? roll call was fucked up. kena do pumping in walk out attire. fuckedup. hahaz. so today marks e start of e 2wks in hell. here we go.Mondaykinda chaotic today. had selections for NDP guard-of-honour. kinda cool so i tried out. heck, its my 2nd coming per se. remember i didnt get into e drill squad? well im in e GOH! haha. e selection was funny. FI firdaus simply saw a face he liked and asked tt guy 2 march. den if he liked wat he saw, ure in. so 15 of e squad is in. rumours start to make rounds. apparently, our squad is gonna disband. all e GOH are not gonna be in squad 11. wtf?!Tuesdaye new mangkuks are finally in. hahaz. saw em looking like lost sheep. lol. FI came in arnd noon. confirmed e bad news. whole squad was in tears. sigh. den he started 2 laugh. act as if he didnt care. "its oni ns wad? honestly, i cant b bothered". whoa. tt hurt. if theres one ting i learnt in TRACOM; its to expext e unexpected...bloody FI raj den separated us into 2 (ie e sq 11 and sq GOH). he said we had to go pack our bags. den wen we stood up 2 do so, he asked where we were going. den he laughed n said no one was goin anywhere! haha. e whole squad erupted in cheer. kaoz. good joke man. hands down.but e joke was still on us. there was an apparent reshuffle. our squad was brought into e hall. there, taufik and muhammad and iskandar were transfered out. FI heard this n came running in. sigh. all coz 2 of em were colour blind and e other was in hospital.coz they left, 10 new mangkuks could come in. ahha... guess who is in sq 11? 3 new JJ guys- imran, jon n chong heng. plus me and khamsya makes 5. farhan, hazahar n harun were in e other sc-oct.Wednesdaytaufik and muhammad came to visit. haha. our 1st words were 'eh, no shoes in e bunk' lol. talked crap wif em n FI. still doin e admin stuff. e mangkuks got their hair cuts. oh, ive got a new buddy. from nyjc. ping lin.Thursdayran like hell 2dy. tink im coming to love running. dunno why. 2dys pt was old school. e new mangkuks went 2 get their stuff. ran 5 rounds around e concourse. den ran e soc route wif FI tony. more den 7km in total. lol. we like FI tony. hes like our warrant officer. Fridaypast few days, weve been at e oc block waiting 4 our interviews. OC let us clear up an empty room tt is like out illegal-hideout-classroom. skipped pt coz of e rain. slacked in e barrack. FI came in at night. saw a humane side of him. juz now he had 2 attend a SOC funeral. this one malay seargant got knocked down while riding his bike. a woman driver had made an illegal u-turn. he was e flag bearer, gave e beret 2 e dead guy's mom. kinda motivational n sad ah his talk. made us realise tt we in e police force face more realistic danger as compared to e dudes in tekong. so yea. so wat if bmt is tougher? our next 2 years after POP is gonna be more dangerous and life threatening.Saturdayconfinement. haiz. supposed 2 b slacking somewhere other den in thomson road. i juz remembered tt i haven taken my innotrek cheque. gotta do it soon. oso found out tt last mth pay for ns was $512. haha. song bo? aniway, finally had my turn in e interview room. but before tt, spent time talking cock in e illegal room. haha. ali is now e undisputed king of porn. sial ah, oc relli like come astrologer or mind reading psychic. his findings were damn accurate. i mean, he said i was like water. able to blend in wif e crowd. tt im damn emotional. n tt i can use it to my advantage. also tt im prone 2 speak wif out thinking. haha. yea, tts all true. made me wonder, later on in e evening, supposed 2 haf a hard-knock session. shld i open my mouth?in anicase, e session was great. lots of tension was lost. so i now noe wat ppl tink of me.Sundayfun pt session. got to play soccer. my team lost e 2 games wif e 'elite' team. but tts coz they hasd 12 players. tackled FI and gave him a hard time. kinda surprised he approached me after e game n gave me a friendly tap. in e 2nd game, i played as left wing. had a chance 2 score but zul was too fast. in any case, i learnt 4rm e previous attempt n crossed e ball instead . zul had inertia. so cldnt cut back this time. my cross was beautiful even if i say so myself. lol. syed connected. 1-0. but we lost in e end 2-0.went to watch e 'a' div baskeball final between eng tat hornets n e home team. boring game final score 79-55 to e home team. e cheerleaders oso like cannot make it.Mondaye start of job course. had swimming lesson. so im in cat 'b'... means i can swim, but ok-ok oni.Tuesdayshooting. juz learnt how 2 handle a gun. so far, all our instructors r great guys. mostly hypocrites. nice 2 us, fierce 2 other squads. we got a new member. haha. supposedly ali was 2 leave, but e admin gave him 6 wks to get his 'a' lvl cert. e admin also approved harith's cert. hes a eurasian muslim from australia. kinda cool.Wednesdayfun lesson wif our OC. lots of info. haha. but mostly classified. so cant publish. had shooting again. also had lotsa boring talks. damn. cldnt help but sleep. oh, i perfected e art of sleeping wif my eyes open. aahaha. lol. law class is like being in jj econs classes. lol. fun is fun ah. but sometimes too dry. e explanations are so wordy so as to be clear in a wordy sense of way without the use of a cornicopia of hard words so that normal laymen can understand the beat aroud the bush language and get to understand the gist of the section under the penal code which could have actually been sumarised in 4 or 5 words instead of using this much words to make the sentence wordy and looking very complex in a wordy sort of way. get e picture?Thursdaydojo lession. damn fun. FI ezra is another hypocrite. hes damn nice wif us. mabbe coz were FI raj's squad. had somemore boring talks. plus e official secrets act oath. guess i cant talk much about police procedures and life in tracom im much detail anymore.Fridaywalk out day. had ippt. damn disappointing. did badly. back 2 a zero fighter. but i tink 2.4 is better. my previous timing was sub 11. lol 10.59. 11.00 actually. lol. after ippt had some light pt which was more like team building. did piggy back, fireman's carry. najib n i fell. actually he collasped under me. wth? im not tt heavy m i? lol. den after tt did caterpillar push ups. legs on each other instead. lol. my grp won. walking out fi made us shout (4,3,2,1) good bye OB! lol.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
I dreamt of a pyramid in a desert,
yet it was raining buckets.
I could read the hieroglyphics
that told of a kingdom drowning.
Once there was indecision.
now decision solving, mathematical even
So slowly I accept this,
let it build me or let it break me.
And though I realize I’m rambling,
it makes perfect sense to me.
I've found myself listening, changing,
floating as far away as sight allows me.
It's simple really, relaxing for the most part.
Maybe tomorrow I’ll touch stars and planets,
or even lasso the moon as I once did.
But if not I will be grateful for its light upon me.
Maybe I’ll ride the sun's rays to this saddened desert.
Sew the sky and let this kingdom breathe,
put mass into space
and move mountains with ease.
Maybe I’ll just sit here, let the air surround me.
Choking me with its freshness till the meld suffocates.
Maybe I’ll just sink in, let it take me into fantasy,
Back to the garden I once pictured, once before in an old dream.
Maybe I’m projecting a future that’s waiting.
Maybe I’ll just take this journey.
Maybe tomorrow,
Maybe. But one day at a time.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
sleeping shiokly. actually, not really shiok ah. e noise 4rm e hkss carnival. damn. 3 plus like tt chang called 2 go 2 town again. haha. reached orchard at 4.30. walked around, aimlessly. until i remembered i needed stuff 4rm beach road. on e train, met hazahar n zhi chen. so went 2gather wif em. found out tt hazahar gonna b in police too. cheot joined guards.
bought 2 white polo t-s. tink i kena ripped off. $8 meh? fuck e old man ah. after makan walked to bugis. slacked around till 8 plus. den chang went home. e 3 of us bought tickets 4 samara. haha, hazahar was damn reluctant.
went to suntec n bought $25 goggles for swimming. haha. kinda cool. blue colour summore. got back to SB in time 4 e movie 2 start. boring show. nt scary. but i tink premonition will b scarier. anyone up 2 watch it? haha. took e last train back. sometin i dread. esp if im goin back 2 my granny's place. coz hafta walk along e canal. so dark. haha. but ok ah. kinda adrenaline rush. acted cool n went back in one piece haha.
Friday, April 08, 2005
Sundaydamnit. back to hell... err, i mean tracom. haha. but on e bright side, its e last week of prep course. came back to e bunk and greeted Baby. coz its his birthday. poor guy. birthday oso sick.Mondayslack day. hell yeah. haha. coz got IPPT 2mrw. PTs were bearable. haha. i tink my butt is thighter. haha. so too are my arms. lol. last pt of e day oni did 2 sets of warm-ups den kena go back 2 bunk. song bo? whole day we were wishing for rain. fucking suay. it rained after we reached e gym. so FI kevin did pt up at e hall. Bring the floor down! a real stomphouse ah! haha. kena do 20 mins of jogging on e spot plus various exercises. he oso tought us a song ah. kinda lame. ' we will not be moved'. SI raymond later came in and talked crap wif us. asked lots of e usual qns and he told more stories. even ghost stories such as e echo coy well. last time surin's friend looked into it and he fell sick 4 2 wks. haha. easy way 2 get mc! so alpha coy is 'clean' only a few reported stories.at night FI raj came in on ys while we were polishing boots. thought us a fast method to get a super shine. he den gave us 3 mins to change into pt kit. damn. squad pt lesson! no! so we fell in at e company line. nabei. he didnt ask us to. so he den said tt since we like pts so much, we shall do one there n then. haha. one thing i learned in tracom is to expect the unexpexcted. so guess what? he made us sit in a semicircle n he thought us some techniques and training exercises to improve our IPPT grades instead. den we went on pt 2 of e tracom tour. saw e echo coy well. FI banned us 4rm there. learned more ghost stories... like e one where e mother n children sell curry puffs there.TuesdayIPPT. one word. FUCKEDUP! haha. wen goin 2 flag raising after warm ups kena punish coz late. nabei. all FI chee wei fault la. fuck. IPPT itself was ok ah. did 2 chin ups! shuttle run 5 pts. and 1 was leading e 2.4 until e 2nd round (last 600 m there). a bloody old bitch didnt give me way to pass. so i tink i twisted my ankle trying to pass tt old hag. but i endured e pain. worse still, my pain killer weared off. and i came in 9th. timing muz b below 10 ah. (claps of applause la).no noon pt. instead did sai kang at e OC eqm room. SSS ahmad met us again. he damn funny screwed up guy ah. we tis time helped to shift e ceck chairs at e swimming pool, while oogling at ths regular chio bu. haha. haiz. so long no girls. even e mess aunty become chio. den wiped e chairs at e parade square. damn. even got bat pee.back in bunk did our hwk until bloody FI chee wei came in and caused a big commotion. kanina! able said we did our fatigue oreadi. coz of tt we kena down 40! (FI found 2 specks of dust). did fatigue again. read e reflections bk. read wat taufiq wrote bout e food. fucking able was as usual sucking up to FI. bloody oct (as we call him) has a problem wf me ah. he say i got a prob wif everyting. he even put every1 in e squad down. wat? we lazy la, we not cooperative la. heck, he even said khamsya his good friend. haha. yea rite. i got so pissed i started acting as if i relli had a prob wif everyting. i fucked e guys upside down.thought e day was done. but chee wei came bak wif a vengance. we kena 100 more pushups. after dinner FI raj, or tan rajamurali chen de li, came in. tot chee wei pauto bout us. so we were prepared 4 e worst. in e end kena skipping pt, changed IC to giles den we talked bout e squad. Jabir (baby) kena picked upon n FI even laughed wen muhammad did his FI fazli immitation. fucking able la. cannot keep his air hole shut. almost got us in trouble. also found out tt our team is gonna b e drill squad. sud bo?Wednesdayworse pt ever. i tink. by far, worse den any commando trainin. heck, our whole stint at tracom is harder den commando trainin. serius. was rainin juznow. red flag up. cat1 so no pt. but nonetheless, kevin carried on. raincoat pt ah. did like 100 overlap pushups on e slippery floor. den summore got endurance pushup position. i guess tts wad we get 4 pissing him off. coz 2 trainees lost their hps. alpha coy got spot check. missed noon pt. damn e rain. y nvr fall a little earlier? Thursday118th P.O.P. hannan, aidil they all damn happy. haha. for us, well, e saikang squad was called to duty. mass cal damn slack. as usual. after tt did arranging chairs. so no noon pt. talked cock wif SSS ahmad again. tt guy damn sexed up. what. he said everyting u do helps improve ur sperm count. haha. crap. den kena do umbrella duty. talk wif OCsquad till 7. power, haha. learnt many secrets and heard many stories. too bad didnt rain... didnt get 2 escort any chiobus. lol. but er got e priviledge to watch e parade next to e VIPs while e other squads watched 4rm way down below, behind e parents. they oso had 2 b in sedia. not us. lol.dinner was 4 e 1st time power sia. 1/2 chicken, coleslaw n mashpotato. e pudding was superb. after tt FI came in n talked wif us. he tested us on e names of e main officers. baby blur as usual. kena drop 20. den FI put a chair on his back n playfully sat on him. haha. FI oso tot us some marching skills. Fridaypt was fun! played some sort of dodge ball style game. we were trashing out opponents until FI kevin bastard us. shit ah. den saikang again. first helped out wif e av team. clean out a room ah. damn dirty. e dust was this thick. haha. missed e other matches. oso missed drill team selection. but after coming back e 8 of us were given a chance. but fat hope 4 me sia. i mean out of 8 oni got 3 spaces. den got ting feng, azman n yunus among us. those super enthu ncc guys. heck la. able got in even! after prayer, saikang for e same SSS. this time move around e barriers in time 4 a rugby match. haha. sat in e van like come special ops squad. sang crappy songs. lol. even taufik batisah had 2 help abit. coz he was standing there talking on his hp (wif act sud sunglasses) n we needed 2 push a barrier up e ramp near e band room. haha.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
cousins came over yesterday. den juz now mornin went 2 their woodlands flat 2 clear stuff up. me my bro n nur went there by bus ah. on e journey, salik called 2 say go baxk coz e tenant changed e padlock, so cldnt enter. so we got down css dere, oni 2 receive anoter call. tis time it was my aunt. told us 2 come coz she juz called a locksmith. damn. ended up takin a cab ah.at e 7-11, nur tried 2 buy milo freeze usin big gulp cup. actually he didnt noe coz e freeze zup no more. c cashier saw den say tt ll cost $6. bluff oni. in e end transfered into 2 freeze cups. e hse was pretty messy. lots of tnps n 4d, toto tickets. spent most of e mornin cleanin.got back home n played soccer. finally tested out my new shoes. haha. nt bad. while slackin chang called. said wanted 2 go 2 town. so wth? i agreed. tompang e van 2 je den met tt commando. haha. his hair lesser den me.went 2 pac plaza. our fav place ah. but notin nice 2 buy. i wanted some shirts n a baseball/trucker cap. n mabbe another boardshorts. met chang's bro n we slacked arnd town. went everywhere. but didnt find anytin eye catchin. damn. i even printed $100 4rm e atm 4 nothin. finally went 2 hmv. saw qianyi there. she n her trademark smile. haha.wanted 2 go home by 10 2 enjoy my bed. surprisingly, so too did chang. so we took a cab. sial ah, didnt realise tt town was bloody near bt batok man. no more usin e PIE for me ah.
Friday, April 01, 2005
Sundayback in hell. damnit. start of wk 3. locked out of e barrack coz e lock was changed.durin reportin time some guy 4rm squad 12 ainted. haha ( i noe, im mean) but he like juz collasped la. like a building.Mondayhell starts. mass cal was damn tiring ah. imagine stayin on diamond push-up position for like 5 mins. damn. yea. e second pt was taken by fi Adam! e saddist. ok, surprisingly bearable. was pretty systematic... plus had no punishments... probably coz we were too afraid. oh yea, he made us sing 'you are my sunshine' while doin 'twinkle twinkle little star' exercise. haha. too used 2 hear e inno campers sing tt song. so felt wierd 2 sing it 2 some one else.afternoon pt was super. 30 mins of endurance. haha. now i tin im confident in winnin survivor ah. on e jog back, fi Raj made us sing sons. e usual army ones ah. like e carpenter son song. e npcc kids were starin at us like wat oni.Tuesdaymas cal cut 1/2 way coz of heath screenin. wth? found out tt im obese! haha. yea rite. stupid BMI crap. dun belief it ah. e lady told me i need 2 exercise at least 3 times a wk. haha. im exercising 3 times a DAY ah. damnit. e NKF screeners some were quite chio. so we stayed up a while longer until fi came 4 us so tt we cld oogle. lol. went down n didnt miss e 2nd pt. damn. fi took us for squad pt. did 1000 skipping. haha. den got one chio bu walk past. even fi was like stoppin us so tt she cld pass tru. man got 'on your right palms down' coz he was starin too openly. afternoon pt was another squad pt. coz atfirst had 2 help shift tvs. did 500 skippings. den endurance sprinting. i yawned. den chaukeng say tt i was taking deep breaths. still enede up doin 20 jumpin jacks wif my mouth open. ''huan, hu, hee, hour, hi, hix, heven... hast houn han hay"Wednesdayslack day. no pt e whole day. haha. dun ask y. i dun care. so sat arnd n slacked. at night we immitated e fis. took turns becomin fis. den e bloody vc squad idiots tried 2 play early apri fools prank by calling 'water parade' we got so pissed la. asked muhammad 2 immitate fi fazli. ''Eh bloody mangkuks, what is this? which fucker call water parade ah? Gentlemen ah, i tell you, not funny you know. Faster own up ah!''haha. e losers ran into their bunk. muz haf fell 4 it ah. haha.Thursdayanother slack day. coz of rain. oni had e mornin mass cal n pt. haha. saqme ting ah. sat arnd. listeded 2 fahmi n muhammad tell stories bout their tkss days. sial ah, more colourful den my css days ah. oh, found out tt rudy lastime almost dated joanne peh. haha. coz they same sec skool. but he rejected her coz she attitude. den summore act like nerd. haha.Fridaywalk out day. as expected. e pts were tiring. e bloody ite students showed y they were there in e 1st place. (no offence to other ite ppl la) simple instruction. 5 jumping jacks w/o counting. cannot follow. some idiots had 2 jump 1 more time. simple instruction. 119 jumping jacks, count at e odd no. cannot follow. 1st jump count as '1', second instead of keeping silent, had 2 say '3' and so on. wahh. count even no n clap on odd oso cannot. do push ups quietly oso cannot. haiz. im damn pissed ah. 20 diamonds. den can go makan. did 15. den some $&#&% had 2 put his knee down. down to 10 den 4 den 0 den up 2 8 den back 2 0. wtf. den 2nd pt still dare 2 start a fight. summore in PA! e place wif e most no of policemen.haha. but luckily. skipped last pt session. coz we were told 2 serve e food 4 e P.O.P. dinner. den, woohoo! walked out at 6.30!