hello dearest,
how are you? great? ...well i hope so.
ive seen you here and there. but more so when i close my eyes.
sigh. im still stuck. ):
ive missed you. do u miss me? id say no. u look fine. or is it all a front? well i hope ure doing good. always have. always will.
so why are you ignoring me? still upset? cant blame ya. i hate whats happened. but we're human. we cant change the past. only learn frm it.
can i smile when i see you next time? may i say hi? will you look away? will you hurt me some more? i hope not.
you're nice. you told me.
i hope. no. i know. i believe.
someday. someday. (:
you were born alone into this world. and you will die alone. someday. everyone is an island. no one cares or bothers. only the lucky few have friends and family that for the most part, care. i dont kno. am i damn unlucky or something? why do i make it seem so easy to care bout others, even those who dont want my care, even those who cant be bothered, ignorant. is it so hard to extend your hand to help someone in need? perhaps.
its odd la. i find.
anyway, how good a person are you? can u go to bed at night, without a care in the world? even after doing something wrong? will the memory haunt you. or will you just shrug it aside?
and one more thought running through my mind... sure they say people can change overnight. sure, people do stupid things to piss u off all the time. but, dont you think the person deserves everything in the world for one chance, a benefit of the doubt, with you remembering all the good times and things the person has done for you in the past? dont be quick to forget. you will be living a lie.
im still me. maybe a little older, a little wiser, a little mature.
and im more irritated and angry too. upset, and disappointed. at you.
nah. its a passing emotion, will go away soon.
move on. (rant)
