there is only so much a man can take. and today, for the first time in my entire life, i just broke down and cried. i always thought it was girls that did that. and for a guy to collapse, it hasta take something big. super big. i tink i just hit a brick wall. where are you, my sweet torment? i really need you here. i dig deep to find the strength to carry on. but im hurt bad. bruised and wounded. like on the battle ground. no amount of painkillers can help. at the very best, they numb the pain. but the wounds still bleed and ill die eventually. no, i wont resort to suicide. im no coward. ill fight. and ill die fighting.its funny, i realized i forgot the man i used to be. fearless, and stoic. going into conflicts outnumbered (well, i had my baton and gun, but u get my drift la).but now, ive been brought down to size.