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you can't see what's in it.

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i don't have friends.

dear you, i spilled my heart out for you to read.
handle it with care. love, me.

1/25/2008 07:50:00 pm

Thursday, January 24, 2008

1/24/2008 05:00:00 pm

Monday, January 21, 2008

1/21/2008 11:13:00 pm

Sunday, January 20, 2008

1/20/2008 11:45:00 pm

1/20/2008 10:21:00 pm

i may be getting a car. woweee.

haha, ok. i shall not curse myself.

i have a habbit of counting my chickens before they hatch.

:(


and im missing you.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

1/19/2008 09:38:00 pm

when we sit. like strangers. not talking. not looking.
thats when i know something is wrong.
how can i turn a blind eye.
please tell.

Friday, January 18, 2008

1/18/2008 10:59:00 pm

somehow it affects me when i see you down in the dumps.
i want to help. but i dont know how.
how can anyone get moodswings and say that its nothing.
like as if its as random as the weather these days.
i may be thick sometimes. bt im not THAT dumb.



or am i?

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

1/15/2008 11:15:00 pm

i tink my knee is busted.
cant bend it. owwwwie..




oh!! i did 32 chinups today. in one go!

sigh.

1/15/2008 10:14:00 am

im having the worst week of my NUS life. and it kinda sucks coz im going tru it alone. i woke up today with a sore lip. damn sad la. its swollen and err... painful. not to mention ugly. haha. 2 days ago, i developed 4 pimples. yeah. life sucks. and its juz e 2nd day of school!

not to mention the emotional rollercoaster im going through right now. THAT i want to live without. i seriously didnt ask for it. so why is it happening to me?

i guess im bordering rejection right now. its a total damper. damn sad la. why do so many misunderstand me? why do i get defensive? i got no clue. honestly.

i guess im a creature of habbit. i got stressed when she started thinking tt i was getting too close. and e worse part is...

e more i thought about it, e more i felt it was true. which sucks.

history is gonna repeat itself. im tryin to do some damage control. bt im screwing myself even deeper. ok, its alright if e damage and hurt is contained by me. i dun relli want sm1 else to suffer coz of my foolishness. if only you knew. if only you cared. if only i wasnt so weak. if only i wasnt so afraid of rejection... yeah, lots of if onlys.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

1/12/2008 11:23:00 pm

do i think with my head? or do i let my emotions get the better of me?
honestly, i have no idea.

i juz spent 3 hrs on e swing at the courtyard. stoning.
3hrs wasted?
i have no idea.

guess i think too much.
u kinda seem to agree on that.

why do i think too much?
mabbe its coz its juz me. paranoid.

no worries tho. i dont bite. :)

Friday, January 11, 2008

1/11/2008 09:28:00 am

i needa learn to be more patient.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

1/10/2008 05:06:00 pm

its a miracle how a person's emotions can change within a split second.
its a miracle how a good intention can be misintepreted.
OK. the above two statements are not related in any means what so ever.
yup.



how i wish i was braver.

much much much braver.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

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1/01/2008 07:35:00 pm

wow. 2008 already.


i guess 2007 has been my best year of my pathetic life so far. my spam new year's msg says it all. met lots of great new people who have coloured in the year gone past. 2008 will surely be better now that i know u guys.



yeah. i still did lose that special someone. which sucks. if only she knew the stupidity of it all. ah well, she is as thick as concrete. or lead.





anyway, celebrations were cool. madness and jammed pack are mere understatements. imagine the fact that the marinasquare 7-11 became a mini club la. with a bouncer to keep e crowd outside. and he let in ppl oni wen others came out. haha, me n bennet juz cut que. lol. VIP.
firework sucked. but i guess its the company that counts la. haha. brotherly love. tnx guys for staying till 6am! haha.
mind cafe was fun. pple watching at MoS was also fun. haha. guess what. its a general agreement that baby W is act cool... sooo not cool. hahaha.


im still deciding on which modules to take. bloody PS intro mods out of stock nxt sem. damn sian ar. i dun wanna go for a 8am lecture can? pleeease save me. hahah.