the sun comes up its seven a.m. (time slips away i don’t know where i am)the sun goes down off to work again (picking up the pieces of my broken life)
feels like i’m sliding but i’m not hurt (sitting on the edge of your jagged knife)
what is reality/what is loneliness (what if i never woke up, would any body notice?)
some times i’d just like to know (if anybody realizes that I’m there)
some times i’d just like to know (if anybody ever really cared)
Chorus: and it’s dark in my room (I look out the sun shines)
and its cold inside my mind (I look out the sun shines)
there's something over there (I want to disappear)
sometimes we cry (laughed and lied)
all the partying just left us empty inside so sick and tired of being constantly wired (not tired but not awake)
not pretending but never fake living in this world only so much I can take
sick of all the lies all of the pain that’s in her eyes, just set her free
she can fly far away from here (hopefully far away from me)
and i’m sorry if i’m not what you wanted me to be
in the end i guess i’m just all i can beChorus:
another blackout no there’s no power here, no way to survive
only thing that gives us life (is the fact were still alive)
the blue sky shines in the morning (seems to disappear)
wish you’d stop your acting (now it’s all so clear)
i can see the light, it's at the end of the tunnel (just hope its not a train)
maybe i’m just lost (in a place that’s always been the same)
Chorus :
so push and pull as i clench my fist (don’t want to turn my back)
i don’t think i’m ready for another sneak attack
cant you stay til i find myself? (don’t you try and give me help)
i tried to scream but you were never there, the question is did you ever really care
did you ever even look at me or was your mind just clouded in a state of disrepairChorus:
Monday, September 26, 2005
you told me i could sleep againall through the night, you would be by my sideyou told me you would always be my friendno matter what happened til the end. i tossed and turned in my sleepyour words couldn't comfort the pain etched so deep.soon the nightmare became all too reali lost all hope, i wished i wouldn't feel. like a thousand claws ripped through my skin,i felt thin and stretchedi was tearing apart from withincheated and betrayedby the one that had said: ''no matter what, i will alwas be here,rest your head on my shoulder, we'll fight this togetherlike salt and pepper, for better or for worsei'll even be beside you in the hearse'' it sounded corny, as if you made it uo a minute agoi didn't care, inside, i was soaring through the air.even if i were hit by a truck,the pain i'd bear, if you would be there. when reality struck, it was hard.like a sucker punch, it went straight to the heart.heck, it was worse than being hit by the truckall i could do was curse my rotten luck. my dreams, my plans shatteredmy heart, ny ego, my pride torn and tatteredi would never feel anything ever again.i'd rater; than living through such humiliation over again.
Friday, September 23, 2005
and with an eraser, i have finally erased you,
from my thoughts, my feelings, my soul, and my heart.
for the first time, i'm freed,
i finally see the path i'm to take,
as clear as daylight its a wonder i didn't see it before,
no more pain,
no more tears,
no more doubts,
the story has reached a conclusion,
old scars remain as a reminder of the wisdom i now possess,
and i will take that with me were ever i go.
new doors have been opened,
and with them comes chances for real happiness,
this will be the last time to write to you.
it's been great together,
with many memories i leave behind,
the good and the bad,
the happy and the sad,
and for the night to end,
i will visit again someday
but for tonight i bid
goodnight.
it's time for me to live again.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
see, im damn smart. no, im not deluding myself. the main reason i stopped bloggin was nt coz it was boring. actually, i realised tt sooner or later, i would haf shot myself in the foot by posting some sensitive articles. already, i almost breached the official secrets act by posting some 'happenings'haha. imagine the headline: "Cop is 4th youth charged under the (insert act here) act." sad case sia. they say the walls have ears, i guess e windows have ears too... heh. geddit? microsoft windows? haha. hahaha. oh ok, nvm...