lifes been sucked out through the marrow. i haf this sinking feeling one gets wen u noe u wun get wat u want. ahh fuck it. wat m i talkin bout? god noes. i got no clue. all i noe is tt i feel empty inside. like a part of me has already died. quick, i need CPR. seems like im becoming more far removed from society. like i care. finally, after 18 years, ive got wat i want. but y? y do i feel like this? a levels ke per? cant b. a sign that ive matured? damn, hope not. wheres the comfy blanket wen i need 1? whee, im stepping out of my ivory tower. no more a kid. not a boy, not yet a man. wats happening? haha. delayed puberty? haha. ok, sometins relli wrong. i can make no sense of this. im letting my fingers do the typing. mabbe after all this rabble, ill get somewhere. till then wathefuck.